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Does This Sound Like Bipolar Disorder To You? (serious Answers Only)?

Does This Sound Like Bipolar Disorder To You? (serious Answers Only)?

Postby Denis » Tue Oct 10, 2017 8:37 pm

I am a 17 year old female and I've been going through depression since I was 14. I can't really remember how I felt before that time in my life, but I know that's when everything started to crack. At first, the depression wasn't anything major, just sadness and crying spells where I'd lock myself in my closet for a while to cry over my life problems. My mom dismissed me as a crybaby and told me to stop being stupid, even when I tried to tell her that I think I was depressed. Now, three years later, my depression has reached an all-time low. I am a habitual pessimist, and I tend to look on the dark side of things. I see very little good in my life, and sometimes I feel like my life is going nowhere, fast. I've made up in my mind that if I came down with cancer or some other life-threatening disease, I'd just let it consume me. That's easier than committing suicide. I OD myself on cold medicine, mostly NyQuil and Robitussin, and I've been cutting my wrists for almost a year now. I've lost many friends and prefer to be alone with my thoughts. I'm known to be with my friends one minute and then one of them suddenly say something that irks me, and I walk off and don't return. What is equally disturbing is how extremely happy I can seem, despite my depression. People think I don't have a care in the world some days--I'll be talking loudly, being confident, smiling, joking, but it's all a facade I put up just in case someone starts getting suspicious. Being happy takes a toll on my body, though, and usually ends with me feeling horrible at the end of the day, and extremely exhausted. I tend to sleep longer than usual (with nothing to do in the mornings, I might sleep from 11 to 11 the next morning) and it's deep, heavy sleep without dreams. The guilt I get from how I used to treat others in the past makes me believe that this is my punishment. My family reminds me everyday how I'm not good enough, that I'll never be up to their expectations. It's frequent that they critique the way I clean, and I just get so frustrated sometimes, because I do my best to get through the day, and people have a problem with trivial things I do? My concentration level is much lower, to the point I doodle on the margins of my notes instead of listening, and I used to write stories in my spare time but my creativity is slim to none anymore. My mind is way too jumpy and races too much to think. Pain from my depression makes my bones ache and I always have headaches. If I said that I sometimes think about suicide, I'd be lying, because I'm constantly thinking about it (jumping in front of a fast car, jumping off the top floor of my school, wandering into the woods and getting mauled by a bear, drowning myself in the pool, shooting my brains out with my dad's shotgun, draining a whole bottle of Tylenol are my favorites).

My mom still doesn't know any of this, and the only person who knows some of this is my best friend. She thinks I have bipolar disorder, manic-depression, or whatever, but I wanted to know what you think.
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Does This Sound Like Bipolar Disorder To You? (serious Answers Only)?

Postby Seorus » Tue Oct 10, 2017 8:41 pm

bipolar is very difficult to diagnose especially in teens. and no one on here can really determine whether you have it or not but it sounds more like major depression. i know it sucks when a family doesn't support you, mine doesn't either and i'm suffering from either depression bipolar or something else and they don't really help me through it. neglect is the worst and can play a big role in mental illness. your mom can't not take you to a therapist if you need to see someone so ask her to take you. i begged and now i'm seeing a psychiatrist finally. but make sure to be clear with your emotions and say the exact truth because you do not want to be misdiagnosed.
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Does This Sound Like Bipolar Disorder To You? (serious Answers Only)?

Postby Muir » Tue Oct 10, 2017 8:43 pm

What you have described is more of a depression. In bipolar disorder it should be both manic and depression episodes of mood swings. It should be of alternate depending on the span of time. But not depression for three consecutive years.
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Postby Riordan » Tue Oct 10, 2017 8:44 pm

It sounds like you have suffer more from moderate to severe depression than being manic and then depressive since you state that "it's just a facade I put up." You seriously need to get help from a professional who specializes in depression in teens.
You're at an age where many of the medications used to treat depression are very volatile.
I am wondering if anything triggered this depression, such as a head injury.
Traumatic brain injuries are now being studied for possible causes of severe forms of depression.
Many teens do have bouts of depression, but to do the cutting on yourself is something that needs to be treated either with counseling and or medications.
Since you're under 18, you must have a parent take you in for treatment and sign for any counseling, so please please do talk to your mom about making an appointment.
It's kind of hard to say as sometimes parents don't always accompany their teens to doc appointments.
If there is a depression hot line to call, I strongly urge you to contact them.
I don't know what area you live in to look it up for you or I would.
If you were near me, I'd begin doing some Reiki treatment.
It can also be done from a distance, but would need your permission to send distance healing.
You are a precious individual in spite of hearing otherwise.
Sometimes at your age, we only hear the negative.
But every soul on this planet is here for a purpose and is worthy and deserving, so you deserve to get the help you need and I certainly hope you do.
Afterall, you came here for a purpose...you just don't know what yet and probably haven't even thought about it.
May you find that special soul deep within so your light can shine out for the world! Bless your heart!
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Does This Sound Like Bipolar Disorder To You? (serious Answers Only)?

Postby Gerold » Tue Oct 10, 2017 8:55 pm

Every teenage who reads symptoms thinks they have Bipolar. Reading symptoms online or in a book does NOT explain how severe they or how they work. Mania is so extreme that most patients have to be hospitalised until stable on medications. Depression episodes are also hospitalised for how bad they are. I watched my dad suffer with it for the past 5 years. When he is depressed he doesn't leave bed for weeks, he can go days without using the toilet or eating. If he does leave bed its only to use the toilet, he cries a lot when he is awake but he can sleep around 20 hours a day! And often says he just wants to die. This will go on for around 4 months until he switches into full blown mania. He will go days without sleeping and then when he does sleep its for around an hour. He talks constantly and does a million things at once, gets angry really easily and cannot sit still. Many times he has gone into psychosis when he was hearing voices and tried to kill himself and my mum. His mania would go on for months. He has been hospitalised like 4 times.


Bipolar is very extreme mood swings from depression into mania or hypomania depending which type the person has. Type 1 entails depression and mania and type 2 entails depression and hypomania. Type 1 is most severe and people in full blown mania or depression usually need hospitalisation. You can read symptoms on the internet but they do not tell you how severe the mood swings or or how they are persented in the illness. For example the mood swings last long periods of time. Usually 6 months depressed and then 4 months manic and the normal for a period of say 2 months and then back to depression again and it cycles. Everyone has a different cycle as everyone is different. Depression is when a person has a continous low mood, they feel hopeless, worthless and sad all the time. They sleep excessivley, like 16-20 hours a night, they cry a lot or cannot cry at all, they may feel no emotions, they may self harm or feel suicidal, they have no energy or motivation some days to even leave bed to use the toilet, they may under or over eat.Then in mania the person can go nights without any sleep at all or sleep less than 3 hours a night and feel fine, they have so much energy they constantly are moving or doing something, not being able to sit still for even a minute, they spend all their money, engagae in risky behaviour like sex with strangers or alcohol and drugs abuse, they talk so fast no one can keep up with them and in some cases people can becaome psychotic hearing and/or seeing things that are not their or being delusional and paranoid. Hypomania is in type 2 bipolar, it is a lesser version of full blown mania. The symptoms are not as extreme as mania but still severe enough to need medication to control. People in type 2 never experience psychotic symptoms.

This is not Bipolar in anyway. You are depressed, not Bipolar. See your doctor and go to a psychologist so you can get the help you need. Do not listen to your best friend, she is giving you very false information.
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Postby deke » Tue Oct 10, 2017 8:57 pm

That is nopt Bipolar at all. Depression yes but not Bipolar. You have to have manai for it to be bipolar and mania is much more extreme than just being happy... also tthe moods in Bipolar last for many weeks or months.. NOT just a day. Sdee someone about your depression though it seem to be serious.


Everyone has moods like those of Bipolar Disorder....... because everyone has mood swings, momentary loss of judgment, likes to go shopping, likes sex, feels down sometimes, gets angry now and then and is hyper on occasion. The difference is that all of these symptoms in Bipolar are so intense that they interfere with your ability to function. Think of a pole (biPOLEr) with 0 at the center (0 being normal) and 10 at one end (manic) and -10 at the other (deep depression). Most people have swings but stay within 3 to -3. I have fairly severe Bipolar 1 but since my psychosis is mild I go from -9 to 9.... Also depression that comes and goes is not bipolar but just recurring depression, you have to have mania for it to be Bipolar..... you have to go to both ends of the pole.

Rapidly changing emotions or becoming angry or sad easily is not all there is to Bipolar. That is just having emotions. People with Bipolar Disorder do not just change emotions quickly, they go through periods of depression followed by periods of mania or elevated mood. Mood affects everything about you.... your energy level, self esteem, sleep patterns, appetite, sexuality, emotional response, judgment, etc..... not just your emotions. And while rapid cycling is possible, it is rare. The average person with Bipolar only cycles two or three times a year and the moods last for weeks or months. It is considered rapid cycling if they cycle 4 or more times in a year.

While everyone with Bipolar has a different set of symptoms and a different severity of symptoms, this is what Bipolar is like for me:

Depression - too tired to get out of bed, shower, even to brush my teeth. Cry all the time, sleep 16 hours a day. Feelings of self loathing and guilt that drive me to think of suicide but I'm to tired to even think about how to go about killing myself. It makes you feel small and worthless and completely insignificant. It makes you think about how big the world is and how meaningless you are in it..... and it refuses to let you have any good thoughts or see any good things.... when you look in the mirror all you see is pain, you don't even see yourself, you don't taste your favorite foods anymore, see that flowers are blooming, whether or not the sun is out, you become so inward that you hardly even notice your surroundings..... You don't even feel love for people anymore.... positive thoughts are just not possible...... it is a deep dark hole with no way out and no light for hope.... and most of all it makes you feel sooooo alone. And even if there were someone who cared about you they would be better off if you killed yourself....... because all you will ever be is a burden....... this can last from a couple of weeks to a couple of years.

Mania - Way too happy! PARTY GIRL! love drink and drugs. Talk really fast and pressured because my thoughts are going faster than my mouth can keep up with. Hypersexual - like I sleep with strangers and guys I just met on the internet or I masturbate 10 times a day. I once became bisexual because there were twice as many people to sleep with. down load porn and spend tons of money on sex toys. Spending sprees..... I once spent my mortgage money on african violets, yep, $1500 on African violets (then I got depressed and let them all die). Quit my job because I wanted my vacation pay for lottery tickets and I was so convinced I would win that I started shopping and writing bad checks because I'd be rich as soon as the numbers were drawn. Decided that I could replace the furnace in my home by myself... I mean how hard can it be..... Only sleep 2 or maybe 3 hours a night for months on end and never feel tired. In the end I was unemployed, $30,000 in debt, and had almost lost my home, which needed a new furnace because I had removed the old one.. or parts of it anyway. This can last for months.

I also have mixed states when I am depressed and manic at the same time which are truly the worst... By body and mind are depressed but there is this undercurrent of energy running all the time..... I'm highly emotional but the emotions tend to be negative (guilt and anger) I have intrusive thoughts and urges to mutilate myself (like wanting to stick my hands in the garbage disposal or cooking them on the BBQ), and I also have psychotic episodes where I hallucinate. This is when I am most suseptible to suicide because I am depressed, wanting to hurt myself, and I have the mental energy to plan and carry it out.
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Postby Glyn » Tue Oct 10, 2017 9:00 pm

Bipolar disorder which is what it is now called (used to be called manic depression) is a mood disorder which effects a persons mood and is caused by chemical imbalances in the brain. In bipolar disorder a person has mood swings from depression to mania which have to last 7 days each to be diagnosed but generally last weeks or months at a time. I developed bipolar when I was 15 and diagnosed at 18, when I was depressed I would sleep constantly, cry, self harm, wouldn't leave bed for days, didn't eat, wash, dress, constantly felt suicidal, hopeless and worthless, withdrew myself from family and friends and stopped going to school. This lasted for 6 months. Then I switched into mania when I was constantly full of energy and felt like I was on top of the world I was so happy, didn't sleep for days and if I did I would sleep up to 3 hours only, went out every night abusing alcohol and drugs, got into meaningless relationship, had sex with strangers, spent every penny I had and even stole from my mum, shop lifted, racing thoughts, aggressive and irritable, psychotic when I would hallucinate and be delusional to the point I stabbed myself and almost my boyfriend, I was constantly doing one thing to the next and I nearly failed college. This lasted for 4 months. Bipolar disorder is something that is very severe and effects your everyday life. I ended up being hospitalised because I was psychotic, hallucinating and delusional.

This is definatly not Bipolar, you arew suffering from depression. In Bipolar you have to have long periods of depression AND mania that last weeks or months at a time. You really only explain depression. You should see your doctor and explain all this to them so they can get you some more help. Good luck :)
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